“A Gentle Spirit with a Giant Message, is how I describe Holly Smith. Women are drawn to her message because of her genuine love for Christ and her transparency portrayed in her testimony. The message Holly shares thru ‘The Cracked Pot’ will touch and bring freedom to women of all generations. She shares God’s message with a passionate commitment to change the lives of others in a positive way. She recently spoke at a Powerful Journey Women’s Conference. The evidence of the power in her message was shown as her session quickly filled with standing room only. As God continues to do a great work through Holly, she will be an added bonus to any program.”
— Phyllis Jenkins, Powerful Journey
“I believe God’s ultimate aim is to cause you to conquer your greatest fear. He does this by exposing the lie you believed. One lie is to look to yourself for ability and deliverance. I didn’t need a master’s degree to follow my Master’s decree to my destiny.”
— Holly Smith
I am over in Europe but can’t tour around because I can’t find my wallet which holds my ID, credit cards and was heavy with change. I was discouraged about losing it as recently I had had trouble with companies trying to take advantage of me and stack up fraudulent charges on my credit card. I felt I might as well give up on having any credit. Next I went into a hotel room where Henri Nouwen had been residing. He left the room as I entered. There was meat and fruit and lots of food in his room. He had been reclining in a bed raised 3/4 of the way like convalescing or writing. I found my wallet with my ID there under his bed. I was so glad to find it and could go explore Europe now.
Henri Nouwen wrote the passage in the above blog about retrieving your true self. It spoke of rejoining a part of you which was shut down or abandoned in your youth to feel safe and whole with you again and regain the joy of who you were made to be.
I am over in Europe but can’t tour around because I can’t find my wallet which holds my ID, credit cards and was heavy with change.
Unable to tour Europe-could not go any further without my ID and credit cards in tact
ID-lost or stolen, identity theft -lost for awhile but being restored
give up on getting any credit for this journey- taken advantage of, misunderstood, fraudulent charges to my account, opposition to my cause
Hold on your reward is with Me and recompense is coming! (Is. 50:7-8)
my wallet heavy with change- transformation coming
There was meat and fruit and lots of food in Henri’s room. He had been reclining in a bed raised 3/4 of the way like convalescing or writing
There will be meat and fruit from your work and food to give out to others.
Rest and journaling will bring results
I found my wallet with my ID there under his bed. I was so glad to find it and could go explore Europe now
recovered my wallet under Henri Nouwen’s bed-found in a place of rest, cease striving, trust God to regain your sense of being and identity in Him
ID, true self again-Henri was a broken, wounded man made whole again to help others and give out what he learned
could now explore Europe-widen your horizons, gain new territory
Trust God. He has much food and fruit to give out through you from a place of resting in Him. Your reward is with Him, recompense is coming!
This is a passage from a book called, “The Inner Voice of Love”. It has been meaningful to me when I teach about retrieving your true self. It is a healing process to rejoin shutdown parts of oneself that may have been lost in childhood trauma or disappointment. Here is the passage:
A part of you was left behind early in your life: the part that never felt completely received. It is full of fears. Meanwhile, you grew up with many survival skills. But you want yourself to be one. So you bring home the part of you that was left behind. That is not easy, because you have become quite a formidable person, and your fearful part does not know if it can safely dwell with you. Your grown-up self has to become very childlike-hospitable, gentle, and caring -so your anxious self can return and feel safe.
Jesus dwells in your fearful, never fully received self. When you befriend your true self and discover that it is good and beautiful, you will see Jesus there. Where you are most human, most yourself, weakest, there Jesus dwells. Bringing your fearful self home is bringing Jesus home in that part of yourself.
As long as your vulnerable self does not feel welcomed by you, it keeps so distant that it cannot show you its true beauty and wisdom. Thus, you survive without really living.
Try to keep your small, fearful side close to you. This is going to be a struggle, because you have to live for a while with the “not yet.” Your deepest, truest self is not yet home. It quickly gets scared. But when you become more childlike, it will begin to look to you as home.
Be patient. Avoid the temptation to let your fearful side run off. Let it teach you its wisdom; let it tell you that you can live instead of just surviving. Gradually you will become one, and you will find that Jesus is living in your heart and offering you all you need.
Are they not in your record?
There is a time and a season where all you have done and stood for will make sense and fulfillment of what you’ve hoped for will come to pass. You have everything you need for the next season with Me. It is time for your assignment and ripe for those who are wise to receive your message. Are you ready? I am the God of the seen and unseen things and I have planted my word and seeds in you that I want shared. Just like Ezekiel, at times you will be sent to a stubborn people but you are only asked to deliver my message so that those will be warned and have a chance to turn to the Truth. Then it will be off your hands. You are my representatives-come into my presence to escape the enemy and experience peace and strength and instruction. Declare your faith in Me to defend yourself against the enemy’s fiery darts. Love and comfort my people in this tumultuous time.
“Sail on, silver girl, sail on by, your time has come to shine,
All your dreams are on their way. See how they shine?
If you need a friend, I’m sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water, I will ease your mind.”
On closer inspection I discovered that silver girl refers to Paul Simon’s wife, Peggy Harper, who found a few gray hairs and was upset. These lyrics touched me as Paul encourages her to press on, keep going, for your time has come and your dreams are on their way. Do you see them shine? He lets her know if she needs a friend and support, he’s got her back side and just like a bridge he will be there to help her over troubled water and ease her mind.
I think that is what Jesus is saying to us, “Sail on!” Joel 2 promises God will pour out His Spirit on all people one day, redeem the years the locusts have eaten, and never again will you be shamed. Your dreams are still on their way. He’ll be your friend and carry you over rough waters. He is your inheritance, your very great reward. Go and take the land, gray hair and all. You are valuable at this time not only to still have your day but to pass the baton to the next generation in what you’ve learned and experienced.
John 2:10 reminds us how most hosts at a wedding party bring the choice wine first and then when their taste is dulled, bring the cheaper wine but you have saved the best for last! Sail on, Silver girl, your time has come to shine. The best is yet to come!
…that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has gone, the new has come! (II Cor. 5:15-17)
I read a devotional this week that I could really identify with. It was talking about the increasing popularity of self-improvement books. I recalled this genre was about all I used to read as a young person. My interest came largely because of my feelings of inadequacy in my own family and desire to measure up to the standards of this world. Many of us are always desiring to become someone other than what we are now. It seemed reasonable to think I needed to take responsibility to find the right strategy, make the necessary changes, get psychologically healed from my past, and become this person these books were writing about. Though I believe books can help us become aware of our weaknesses and work on overcoming them; there is only One who can change us and make us new. The remedy for this kind of change was the complete opposite of what I thought back then.
Reminds me of a story when I first met my husband. I went to visit my mom in Houston and was reading a book titled, “Word Power Made Easy”. My mom kidded me and remarked,
“If he doesn’t like you now, it’s too late to improve!”
I realized I had worked so hard striving to become someone other than myself but no matter how many books I read, I couldn’t really fix myself. I needed to be a whole new creation! As far as “word power”, God had made me a simple communicator. This quality was actually needed in my future marriage to balance the intellectualism of my husband. I needed to lay down my self-improvement inward searching and turn my focus outward to serve, love and sacrifice for others as Jesus did. As I did this he would make me all I was created to be.
Then the Lord gave me an interesting dream:
Alan and I had a booth set up at a local church selling mangoes. Man-goes was a play on words, a pun illustrating this truth: the (old) man must go. Ironically, the church name was Restoration which symbolized our redemption from our previous secular thinking and need for renewal. We would be “selling” this message of dying to self, living for Christ.
(II Cor. 5:17)
Later on I dreamed of having a spiritual baby of rest that others would adopt and help me raise.
Are you striving to become something you are not? Enter his rest, turn outward and see where he wants you to serve. He will make you who he created you to be. Know that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. Embrace your uniqueness and give thanks!
May I pray for you?
Dear Lord, Thank you that you are the all sufficient one. Make me a whole new creation in your image as I serve and love others. Thank you that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I embrace who you made me to be and as I abide in you; you are my hope of glory. Amen